I'm looking for the end...

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i've changed the blog song again. this time i'm uploading the flash into an online free server... should be ok all day round as it should be stable. downloading speed is just a little worse than geocities which i've previously used. so, if u want music, wait for the download to end and automatically u'll get it. awww i've forgotten to say which song it is. but i think u can guess, its the used - all that i've got... sorry but recently i've been pretty addicted to this song. lol

hallo. first of all, i would like to say 1 thing... ZHANG SHENG U SPELL MY NAME WRONGLY IN UR BLOG!!. ok now for today, just got home after lunch. wah lew not good loh today... early in the morning... wah lao i thought german lesson got QUIZ only loh! then what the bullcrap its not lor! its a CA1... its a common test lor! die already loh... i just anyhow anyhow do lor! hope i can get sympathy marks and pass... lol. hai... then after that... went through all those meaningless lessons again. its starting to bug me more having sitting through lessons without ever concentrating abit on them... time to study... it should be either end of this week or next week already!!!! then after that... went off with wss peeps since others have got semestral proj... hai so sian. so early go home do nothing 1... think i gotta finish my maths worksheet 9 later and then... guitar time if i still have the energy to. ok lah thats all... no no... sorry to michelle cuz i said ur hair like... hhahaha... its nice lar kk!

"i'm looking for the end..."

"be careful what you wish for... you just may find it"

hey ya. didnt write anything much these few days as u can see. so maybe i would like to do backtracking even though as u know, it doesnt work well like always since i'll forget almost everything that happened the day before. so think think.... yesterday i had played pool with zw and his frend after school due to extreme boredom, but in any case, playing pool yesterday wasnt the best idea and i too, felt bored throughout. today, we had only 1 lesson and we learned flash animation again. its pretty cool to learn something i'd missed out on since maybe like sec 3 when the teacher then was teaching about the motion guide thingy which i didnt manage to catch since i was busy slacking lol. after that we had soccer by the basketball court. it lasted for only like an hour or less... not satisfactory for my itchy legs. lol. but nvrmind since everybody's energy is really drained. tomorrow theres gonna be a unusual 'normal' guitar practice in school... early in the morning... after that dont know want to do what... dont feel like staying at home in a saturday, since its really chaotic with aunties and uncles gathering... ew... lol... i shall see what i can do to keep myself away... directionlessly searching for something i dont know... aiya what toking me... lol

this is my f1 car. nice?

cuz ding yao laugh for no reason...

haiya haiya

cuz the teacher teaching until damn sian... i dont know what he teaching... excel is the only thing i know. the rest = alien. i am so miserable.. i dunno why i am doing this...

cuz xiwen say i wussy and gay when i am not... :(

yay changed blog song again... as u know, green day - boulevard of broken dreams, enjoy. for this, the used - all that i've got, its really nice!


So deep that it didn’t even bleed and catch me,
Off guard
Red handed; now I’m far from lonely
Asleep I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn’t even bleed, catch me.

I need something else
would someone please just give me?
Hit me and knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can laugh all I want inside
I still am empty
So deep that it didn’t even bleed, catch me.

I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got
I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got
(All that I’ve got)

I guess I remember every glance you shot me
Unharmed, I’m losing weight and some body heat
I squoze so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn’t even scream Fuck me.

I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got
I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got
(All that I’ve got)

And it’s all that I’ve got
It’s all that I’ve got
It’s all that I’ve got
It’s all that I’ve got
It’s all that I’ve got.

So deep that it didn’t even bleed; catch me
So deep that I didn’t even scream Fuck me.

I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got
I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
I’m far from lonely
And it’s all that I’ve got.

the lazy me once again trashes the textbooks and homework aside for entertainment... for guitar today... lol

wazza~~~ lets have a little history lesson of yesterday. it was friday, hari raya haji right? haha. and i did went town jalan jalan with frend and so, the main purpose was to buy clothes lah. walk walk walk... and so in the end walked until got only 3 shirts for the whole day. thats it for yesterday since i shall not elaborate further. today, had performance finale and then actually planned to do multi. com. project. but since its like half dead of both me and sebas, we had do start being lazy again. so after that, indera brought those 3 cute little girls from his sec sch who were around the skl for open house, and he asked me along to accompany him to town since he seemed bored being with those ladies. so i did accompanied him, went around and same as yesterday... jalan jalan like mad but different thing is that i've bought nothing, even after the hunt for keychains for our guitar bags. haha. but the nightmare before christmas dolls' keychains seemed to catch my eye... i think i'll make it mine sometime later!

Yesterday, the song we're gonna play today
Now it look as though its time to play
Oh, we should now play yesterday

Suddenly, indera dun have half the balls he used to have
There's a rush of blood into his veins
so i'm afraid, he might just faint

Why he so kan chiong I don't know, he couldn't say
I said something wrong, now I know he's not okay

Yesterday, it was such an easy song to play
Now he shivered his fingers like a gay
no, I guess i shouldnt have said

Why his face so red now i know, he's pai seh
I said please be strong, but I bet he's not okay

Yesterday, it was such an easy song to play
Now he need to hide his face away
oh, indera... its all okay, Mmmmm....

ok soooooo i've just had my 2nd of 3 guitar performances for the nyp open house today. so well, i think i managed to play yesterday successfully. yay. but one thing about the performance is that indera is like sooo freaked out or something haha. always ending the performance with a red-ish face. haha. ok lah... here are some pictures i took before the guitar performance... nothing interesting really.






and also... something interesting while having my train ride back home... it was evil xiwen's idea for having me taking the photograph of this poor dude here who slept in the train and drooled on his shirt...




notice that dark brown stuff at the middle of the shirt? thats the mark made by the saliva... haha! haiya too evil already sia me... :(

hahahaha..... nice song. catchy


1,2,3,4
Went out with the guys an before my eyes,
There was this girl she lookd so fine.
And she blew my mind,
And I wished that she was mine,
And I said hey wait up cos im off to speak to her.

And my friends said
(you're never gona get that girl, never gonna get that girl)
I dont care
Cos I never met a girl like her
Love was in the air
And she looked at me
And the rest is history

Dude you're being silly cos you're never gonna get that girl
And you're never gonna get the girl

We spoke for hours
She took off my trousers
Spent the day laughing in the sun
We had fun
And my friends they all looked stunned (yeah yeah)
Dude she's amazing and I can't believe you got that girl

(My friends said she's amazing and I can't believe you got that girl)
She gave me more street cred
I took the books she read
How could i forget
She rocks my world
More than any other girl
(Yeah yeah)
Dude she's amazing and I can't believe you got that girl
Can't believe you got the girl.

She looked incredible,
Just turned 17,
I guess my friends were right,
she's out of my leauge
So what am I to do?
She's to good to be true

1,2,3,4

But three days later
Went round to see her
But she was wtih another guy
And I said fine
But I never asked her why
And since then loneliness has been a friend of mine

My Friends said
(Such a pity, sorry that you lost that girl)
Sorry you slipped away.
They told me every day,
That it'll be ok.
She rocks my world more than any other girl
Dude it's such a pity, and I'm sorry that you lost that girl

I am 32% evil.




I could go either way. I have sinned quite a bit but I still have a bit of room for error. My life is a tug of war between good and evil.


Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com



did a little evil test
just now checked out on red hot chili peppers - by the way guitar chords... yay i can play a little bit! hiak hiak... tomolo might be playing soccer and guitar after that... thats what a day should have!!!

well... the flash or the music is already up. but i realised that the play button is not really functioning... dunno why also... but next time then i shall investigate. sooooo today... school was so... i cannot describe it. went for german in the morning... was bad cuz its like all those blah blah blah and i cant understand what the teacher was talking about... and we all gotta remember the verbs and usage of tenses for the language so its really crazy. then i or we (the guys) skipped the dmd elearning lesson. so in total we earned ourselves 4 hours of breaktime. i think its kuanyi who suggested LAN gaming so... since most of them agreed then they proceeded with the games. i didnt join them, dont know why also... thinking of cs... haiya dont really have the mood to play. so hang around the theatre (as the lan gaming shop is in the theatre) with zw. after all those, went for 4 hours of com skill lesson. boring as always... so after school i managed to successfully escape from accompanying kuanyi in the mrt! woohoo sooo happy... its peace! haha! i might sound so mean but come on... its either i suffer without having the title of being mean or i enjoy the train ride with it. haha! dunno what to say lar! its just a preference for music for my ears during the train ride rather than 100% rubbish and meaningless trash talk from kuanyi!

yay music is up. i hope u guys can view the flash. its dumb... animation-less, but at least i've finally learned how to do animated buttons. haha. soooo... time to recap on what happened to the past few days. i dont remember much... but still, only memory are: friday, I HATE COM SKILLS cuz its so meaningless. after that, played 3 or should i say 2 matches of soccer cuz 1 match ended up too short thanks to me. saturday: had guitar training in the morning for the 1st time. played yesterday (as u can hear from the player here in my blog) and three dances again. heard that they will be picking people for the open house performance... hope ind me and xw will all get through and perform! haha!

oh yeah i just did this new skin... its pretty much the same concept as the previous skins i've done... those 3 boxes... but at least now the pic is over at the left side rather than in the middle... this seems too bloody in my opinion... i'll see what i can do... lol, so in the meantime, i shall stick to this skin.

Yesterday, all my troubles seemed so far away
Now it look as though they're here to stay
Oh, I believe in yesterday

Suddenly, I'm not half the man I used to be
There's a shadow hanging over me
oh, yesterday came suddenly

Why she had to go I don't know, she wouldn't say
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday

Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
oh, I believe in yesterday

Why she had to go I don't know, she wouldn't say
I said something wrong, now I long for yesterday

Yesterday, love was such an easy game to play
Now I need a place to hide away
oh, I believe in yesterday, Mm

today, i dont really feel good cuz flu's getting to next level. but it gets better later in the day while in school. skipped ngjk's lecture of java programming (i feel a little bit guilty haha) for soccer, and in fact, replacing jamming session with that too. soccer was fun, but it is energy devouring. ok now i'm getting really tired... so thats all for today. and one last thing, thanks for the marshmallow michelle!

somehow i find this song meaningful... maybe its just me? bwahaha



I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

duh, i'm suffering from pre-flu symptoms right now... its not good knowing u might be going to feel worse the next day. especially when almost all's set for jamming tomorrow... dont really wanna miss anything out. so just hope for a healthier tomorrow! haha.

aiya this blogskin like simple simple only but at least can be better than the 'creative' blogskin right? haha. no music for now... but it should be coming in a few days time while i do the flash...

My friend's got a girlfriend and he hates that bitch,
He tells me every day.
He says: "Man, I really gotta lose my chick
In the worst kind of a way."

She sits on her ass he works his hands to the bone
To give her money every payday.
But she wants more dinero just to stay at home.
Well, my friend, you gotta say:

"I won't pay, I won't pay ya', no way,
Na-na why don't you get a job?"
Say "No way", say "No way ya', no way,
Na-na why don't you get a job?"

I guess all this money... well, it isn't enough,
To keep the bill collectors at bay.
I guess all this money... well, it isn't enough,
'Cause that girl's got expensive taste.

"I won't pay, I won't pay ya', no way,
Na-na why don't you get a job?"
Say "No way", say "No way ya', no way,
Na-na why don't you get a job?"

Well, I guess it ain't easy doing nothing at all, oh yeah.
But, hey man, free ride's just to come on along, every day.

(Let me tell ya bout the other friend now.)

My friend's got a boyfriend and she hates that dick,
She tells me every day.
He wants more dinero just to stay at home.
Well, my friend, you gotta say:

"I won't pay, I won't pay ya', no way,
Na-na why don't you get a job?"
Say "No way", say "No way ya', no way,
Na-na why don't you get a job?"

"I won't give ya' no money, I always pay,
Na-na why don't you get a job?"
Say "No way", say "No way ya', no way,
Na-na why don't you get a joooooooob?"

Hey, that's something everyone can enjoy.

sorry indera, no more blink 182 - always. now is the offspring - why don't you get a job. enjoy. :D

my 2nd iriver since the 1st died


act of boredom, size comparison between player and my bro's k700i

my guitar... sooooooo.... dunno... haha


my guitar's brand... lousy china brand hahaha!


digital fortress by dan brown. reading it occasionally

yo yo so after 6 days, i've returned with an entry, but also without anything to say too. probably forgotten what i've done these past few days... only remembered jamming and nothing else i guess, oh ya and also guitar practice. woohoo jamming is so fun... but i, or should i say we dont know who or what to play anything except for a little bit of guitar bwahaha... pathetic man... so thats the 1st hour of jamming in my life, turned out great, but it ended quick too. so for guitar, well that was yesterday... turned out horrible. spent the whole practice, from 6:30 to 8:30 still cannot get through that 1 page... its sooooo painnn in the asssss... or fingers cuz its difficult and i kept on trying to familiarize myself with the positioning... well thats it i dont remember anything else i guess... lol.. so till next time, take care yall