I'm looking for the end...

haiyer, sometime since i've written something here. so much happened, so lazy to write. hahaha. so... hmmm, haiya lazy to write.

well its been like some time since i've updated my blog. hell i thought it was only like 2 days ago when i last blogged. so, my mistake. i've been busy with some stuff this week, monday, wss then go buy bbq stuff for class outing at taka, tuesday, jamming , skipped wss and kanna bluff by michelle again... duh! wednesday, skipped wss and went to east coast for class outing... we were lucky cuz it didnt rain, weather was pretty okay, but wasnt sure if everybody did fully enjoy the bbq... but obviously i guess not since there werent much activities planned for it... if there were to another, i guess we shouldnt miss that out. today, wss, and finally the torment ended after i was allowed to drop out of wss. omg, i was like hyperly unhappy each time i have to attend wss... today was no exception... so i've decided to make that move. the rest of them joined in too... didnt much expect them to do the same, thought they were gonna so stay in the wss and do well there... awwww... my blog's getting boring... i shall stop here for the while...

woahaha. went sentosa with the gang of 2e2 peeps as well as their soccer team today. hoho its been some time since i've been there, the beaches changed quite a lot. and there are more delifrances' around. lol. actually it was a pretty boring outing i should say, i only cycled... then slack there... doing nothing much... being a photographer for a day, taking really stupid pictures for the girls... hmmm... stupid. haha. those people... didnt really change much. they still behave the same, talk the same... yeah so its kinda good... and bad i guess. lol. yesterday went to bugis with chun... actually wanna buy wallet. but see until like quite expensive... then must consider 1st... lol. tomolo going to safra... going to slack there like mad with lijin, hong and melvin. haha...

hell yeah finally holidays came. i guess i need a break, i guess everybody needs it. so... talking about today... supposed to study by the time i reach sch after meeting the guys. but it struck me again, i have no will to study, no motivation, no purpose. so i just gave up again. and hell, going to battle unprepared, unarmed. the only thing that i have was confidence. confidence of achieving failure. but, since i've already won the war, who gives a shit about the battle? so yeah, dont dwell over it anymore, after that went jamming. an hour doesnt prove enough to play even a song. everybody's messing around with the different instruments they can find in the room, so... basically everybody's messing around... hmmm... so... i think... thats it... just now watched a little of the 9pm show on channel 8, they're talking about the unsureness somebody could have, and god damned a lot of stuff, so actually it might be the 1st time a local show had me thinking so hard, yet they're all fact, they are what i have encountered... where are all that i've used to have? where is the me before all these got reached me?

haizzz... up till now still haven study anything for maths... this time really die... but who cares... haiz...



The Used - I Caught Fire

Seemed to stop my breath
My head on your chest
Waiting to cave in
From the bottom of my...
Here your voice again
Can we dim the sun..
And wonder where we've been.

Maybe you and me so..
Kiss me like you did
My heart stopped beating
Such a softer sin.

I'm Melting.. I'm Melting

(Chorus)
In your eyes..
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I’m melting
In your eyes..
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me, lay with me now.

Never caught my breath
Every second I’m without you, I’m a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stones
Why cuts aren't healing?
Learning how to love
I'm melting, I'm melting

(Chorus)
Stay with me, lay with me now.

You can stay and watch me fall
And of course I’ll ask for...

(Background Scream) Help......

Just stay with me now
We can take our hands off, stay in bed
Just make love, that's all
Just stay with me now

I'm melting, I'm melting

(Chorus x2)
(Background on 2nd Chorus) Stay with me, lay with me

In your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes
I'm melting in your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes

no time to blog since its exam period... so... update using song lyrics haha. muse - hysteria, this song is BESSSTTTT!


Muse - Hysteria


It's bugging me
Grating me
And twisting me around
Yeah, I'm endlessly
Caving in
And turning inside out

'Cause I want it now
I want it now
Give me your heart and your soul
And I'm breaking out
I'm breaking out
Last chance to lose control

It's holding me, morphing me
And forcing me to strive
To be endlessly cold within
And dreaming I'm alive

'Cause I want it now
I want it now
Give me your heart and your soul
I'm not breaking down
I'm breaking out
Last chance to lose control

And I want you now
I want you now
I feel my heart implode
And I'm breaking out
Escaping now
Feeling my faith erode

heya. how time flies, its already friday... of course, by saying that, nothing means good. i'm behind my study schedule, which i planned to complete or near complete my java by yesterday, but obviously i didnt, so i have to work on java today again. shit... but couldnt solve anything much... so only have to depend on tomorrow when i will meet with francis and the others, hope they can help me out. as for maths, well i tried to study just now, but didnt have the power to... so too, i'll throw everything to tomorrow also, hoping i could at least master integration by then. then it would be all practice from then on!!~!~!~!~! as for now... hmm... guitar time!... haha... tried playing boulevard of broken dreams several times... dont know if it sounds like the actual song or not... but at least i think i did hit all the notes in the chords i found correctly... at least once out of the many times i played. haha.

hmmm, i planned to do java practices today, i did, but till now, only a tiny little bit. thoughts of how i screw up this semester badly came to my mind suddenly, the moment i wanted to study so... shit happens u see. hmmm... so... thought about it for a little while, suddenly felt like switching course as well as school... since nyp wasnt the choice i wanted right from the beginning. but nevermind... i'll see what i can do after i get the results. right now, i have to put my focus back on studying for the upcoming exams. yesterday night, i was asked to go out and study with some guys, but after i replied the sms ky didnt reply... then i see, hmmm... i received his sms at around 1045pm... and i checked the sms, it actually states that it was sent at 918pm... wtf... i received the msg only after more than an hour plus from the time it was sent... shitty... starhub or is it my phone i dont know. so nvrmind, i went to sleep, and got up at 11 this morning, only to find out that they are meeting 1230... so laziness dragged me back to bed and decided to give it a miss to study with them.

well well, as u can see. new layout. but shit, this layout sucks a lot in my opinion. i dont know why... hmm... nvrmind its not completed anyway... still have got some lines of codes to be added. so. today morning, yay finally waged war against java. the battle begun... it was a formidable opponent... lol. but i've tried my best to understand it. so yay, i actually read through the whole book already, and finally understood the class and driver files. hahaha! but victory is no where near, tomorrow i'm gonna start doing the practices in the textbook and maybe search for the long lost java past year papers and begin working on them. its funny how i've got a plan on what to study on for the rest of the days till the exam... never really do that before... lol.

today... nothing much happened. went to school for a meaningless java lesson, teacher was teaching some test paper stuff, i didnt pay attention. instead i was beginning to start revising on java, from the basic. so, hmmm... nothing much happen lah! haha.

came across this stupid animated gif... hilter's favourite fruit... lol

here it goes... my 1st actual entry since my blog returned. and as u know, yeah yesterday... started off, well u know what... or should i say u dont know what, i was feeling down like the past 2 days. hmmm... ok so nevermind i received quite a lot of birthday wishes so that brighten up my day. hmm... met 2 people in the train, noh and khaileng. wow its been like a freaking long time since i've seen kl. by the way thats the girl who looks like china hilton i'm talking about hahaha. then reached school at around 12 plus i think. then did nothing, actually planned to study but in the end i felt totally moodless to do so. so did the dmd common test in the late afternoon. i just wrote all crap in the paper, no person could ever expect for a pass in that so... just let it be. then after that went to bugis to kick some ass. a simple game of cs made me vent much of the stress and stuff... great. haha. then proceed with dinner, then watched movie with zw and the frend... kaoz still dont know his name haha. but it was funny, we were like laughing our heads off cuz we watched the eye 10. OMFG its like it should be rated a comedy rather than a horror film.. holy shit its like CRAP loh! basket case... wasted my 8.50... hahahaha. after the movie, i was like... keep on saying, oh yeah... alright..., why? cuz of the MOVIE! haha. ok lah then went home. reached home around 11 plus or just minutes before 12. some stuff happened during that time... till then then i realised all was an april fools day joke! omg... i got fooled... you got me! haha. but still thanks HOR hao ren! hahaha. i appreciate it very the much! hahaha!!!!!.... i'm going mad soon... lol.