I'm looking for the end...

enough of stupid and meaninless thoughts. i need to stop being a retard for not doing what i'm supposed to. i need to get myself going. sorry to whoever who's bothered/concerned about me. and now, focus my attention on ecomm test tml and sem proj! i just got...



haha.

save me from misery
to the skies, i cry
echos through the air, no replies
i knew thats life to which i sigh
to only have myself to rely


again...

-me

just realized that i havent been dreaming for a very long time in my sleeps.


'you're stupid'. yes i agree with it, i am, i really am.


you slit my throat, and while gasping my final breaths, i apologized for spilling my blood on you.


-me

hasnt been blogging for a little while. well... hmmm... these few days have been crazy, emotionally. yeah. haha... but things turned out well i guess up till this point and yeah, maybe i just could be the happiest guy around. lol. nevermind if u dont get the point cuz i dont expect you to. so now, yeah gotta work on my marketing assignment, and gonna chop my hair later hopefully if i have the time. alright, thats enough of blogging... so cya on the next post.

we're heading towards the nights
we dont want our shadows to be seen
a walk through the bridge
a conversation about the closest kin

it all started, a walk that i would remember
a trace of tears, sorrow and joy
the simple steps we took could never be forgotten
leaving our footprints on the cold soil

you're sure too weird even for a night
a stranger so familiar to me
you're still the same person
but a different status was deemed

i know you're suffering deep within
a control you've lost in yourself
i could be the one to give you a hand
but i knew i could just be the reason you fell

should i step out or should i restrict me
insane thoughts throughout the day
madness as unheard voices cry
still thinking of the logic behind the things you say

hesitation brings me down
a decision which might eventually be so great
that true happiness might be found
no way we can be now as for our own sake

we shall depend on time to judge our fate
either seal it, or bring it to a whole new different level
for i will never forget the special things you've said
from somebody who could be closest to perfect, you're the one girl

i hope our lives wont change for now
certainly aint anytime from this on
i guess i shall be waiting for this prize
shouldnt you tell me by then that you'll be gone

me

Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

Summer has come and passed
The innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends. . . . .

you made my day special
a ride, a walk, a journey home
i didnt expect it to be that unusual
but nevertheless the feelings have grown

woah its been so long since i've written an actual entry, well just this 1 for the time being to keep a real dead blog alive.
today, woke up at 745 and got ready to meet noh to supposedly study marketing, but in the end it was only him who's doing so while me, still stuck by my own ideal of not studying on the actual day of test itself. so was chatting, reading comics thanks to kuan yi, messing around and yawning all the time. yeah had marketing common test, well it was pretty simple i can say even though i dont expect to score really well. it was manageable. after marketing, its left with me and adeline so we were wasting our time while waiting for the arrivals of our tutors for maths for the day. so it took sometime for those 2 tutors to get from ffr to south canteen... hmmm but nevermind. so well, studied maths with mich dy and adeline starting i guess around 330 or so. duh maths... unexpectedly... studied all the way to around 830. wtf almost a whole 5 hours for maths? something is really wrong with me i guess. got home at around 915, had dinner, bath, online and then started to work on maths again. yeah maths is really getting me fucking frustrated, and i can serious hell say no matter how much i put in now might not even get me a pass for this upcoming common test, seriously screw and fuck maths!